haiz.. still doubting my Salvation.
so its been 2 and a half months so far..
been thinking about it non-stop everyday for the past 2 months.
really need to stop!!
I keep accepting Jesus as my Lord and Saviour, then I wonder whether I really did or not, then the process repeats again and again, and again. when will this stop.. like, I know I did accept Him as Lord and Saviour, but keep wondering again and again - did I really? hmmm, its probably a doubt tho, I dont think that God would put these kind of thoughts in someone's mind.
so right now I'm actually doubting myself, not the Bible.
my mind has been totally soaked in doubt.. cant even study properly.. cant even think properly..
May God help me to stop all this doubt as soon as possible/now so that I can really be sure of my Salvation.

another month gone, and its september ald!
the year is ending really fast.. :l

ok its been 1 and a half months.. and I have to stop worrying about my Salvation.. its been too long already..
Lord, I commit all my worries and doubts unto you knowing that You are in control of everything. May this be the last time I worry about my Salvation. I know I have accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Saviour.
I AM saved. Lord please take away all the doubts and help me to continue to believe that You ARE my Lord and my Saviour.

hmmm
and time's passing really fast..
its already the middle of august :l

ahh.. I'm doubting my Salvation.. :l Lord help me!!
Lord just..
help me to stop thinking about the all of the doubts..

fill my mind with the Word of God's 100% true proclamations.. and believe that everything that goes against the Word of God is completely false..

and just help me to remember that ultimately only You are in control of all..


may all the doubts never come back.
Please help me Lord

thank God for a good time at church camp [: cant believe its over ald

Haizz.. Sian

feeling confused right now.. like I don't know what to feel.. hmmm strange :l

haiz.. felt the weekend passed too fast! can't believe its ald sunday night! haizz nvm.. thank God at least its going to be a pretty short week as there will be good fri in abt.. four days time.. [:
hmm.. think I really need to talk in a less-sian kind of way :l I think the way I talk is sometimes like quite sian.. k.. I shall try not to be so sian then.. sry, the thought just crossed my mind.
ok then. its getting late.. goodnight.. [:

Hellos[: Ok. Feeling both sad and happy that the hols are over.. like.. I'm sad its over but happy it happened. thank God for the holidays.. :D ok.. here's what I did this march hols.. (aside from having QT every morning)

-Monday
spent the day with eleanor and amoz, they were doing some stuff with my bro's macbook.. so.. most of the time was spent at home that day. There was song prac for good fri at my hse at around 7+ but left home at around 5 to have dinner at lot1 with the rest who were singing.. so.. slacked the whole day until evening, until dinner n song prac. okay now on to tues..
-Tuesday
woke up early this morning, at around 6:30-6:45.. went to send my bro off to kinabalu at changi.. met up with yew weng, justin and hannah at kallang later on at around 11:30am to ice skate at kallang leisure park.. had lunch with them at burger king until abt around 1? started skating at from like 1+ until around 3.. ( was fun![: I wanna go again haha.. ) at night there was song practice again.. was at church n started around 6:30 if I remember correctly, song practice ended at around 8, which was just when prayer meeting stated.. so.. that abt concludes my day. yupp
-Wednesday
er.. the most of today was spent skating/watching tv/com/reading some of the "Amazing Grace" book.. until at around 4 where made my way down to my dads office to have dinner with him.. there was some combined fcm meeting at night at NUS.. I had nothing on that night so I decided to join them[: so.. yup.. that was my day.
-Thursday
met up with gideon at jurong pt at around 11+ for lunch, walked around jp until around 3. think we got bored then so we went to his hse to play basketball til around 6, went back to cck, ta pao-ed dinner home.. it was around 7 when I reached home, after dinner, went to aaron's grandmother's wake til abt 9, went for a walk after that, came back.
-Friday
went to meet my dad for lunch at raffles place. after having lunch, he brought me to some place called the URA which stands for, the Urban Redevelopment Center.. the stuff there was abt the future of singapore, like for the planning of it n buildings n stuff. at night, went to family worship which was at james' hse, that abt ends my day then..

ehh sorry if the post so far seems like really boring n some things weren't really explained that well :l
seldom blog n don't really know how to express myself that well here yet.. sorry!
hopefully I can be more interesting in the way I post next time.. :l..
ok its getting late n I need to go ald
bb![:

okay.. will post a recap of the holidays by the end of this week...